First of all, a shout out to my big brother Tim who turns 42 today! How the hell did we get old?? haha!! I remember him calling me "Tambutt" growing up and constantly teasing me. He still does actually! :p
He looks so innocent doesn't he?? haha! Actually that's a mischievous smile!! He's probably about to squeeze my arm or something! And call me Tambutt! :p
I had a hard time sleeping last night. I couldn't figure out why for the longest time and then I remembered having a glass of caffeinated green tea with dinner. I tell you, I cannot have caffeine late in the day or it screws me up completely even the smaller amount in green tea. It's funny, I had a very difficult time opening the cap to the bottle. Maybe I should have paid attention to that sign that it wasn't a good idea! haha!!
Now, a keeping it real moment. Just sharing a bit about why I am so interested and careful about nutrition and health.
I was just reading an article about signs that you might have an autoimmune disease. I read up on this regularly as it is possible I could develop something. My mother had Lupus and in fact ended up dying from it at the age of 50. Her official cause of death was Lobar Pneumonia with complications from Lupus. She's been gone since I was 25. She had been in remission since I was born. My theory is a bad bleeding ulcer she had suffered from weakened her so much the Lupus came out of remission. Who knows though. It's one of those diseases that has only recently gotten more attention and funding for research.
My maternal grandmother also died young at the age of 49. She had some issues I haven't had and both my grandmother and mother were smokers. I am not. So I do live a different life than they did however those ages stay in my head and I am aware. I had been living so horribly. Unhealthy, overweight. And I suddenly decided that among other reasons I didn't want to live that way anymore and I could not die because I didn't take care of myself. If something else happens out of my control, so be it...but dying because of my choices? No way! I have too much I want to do and see in my life including seeing my boys become amazing men and giving me grandchildren. :)
There has been some thoughts that my grandmother may have had Lupus as well though there was still so much not known about at the time. So of course that is in my head. A possible hereditary link. I run cold a lot. Among other things that is a symptom of an autoimmune disease. I can't dwell about all this though. My next physical I will mention it and have them test it. Until then I will continue to live my healthy life. I feel good and healthier than I did in my 20's!
I think it's why I'm such an optimist too. And live such a positive life usually. There is only one person in my life who consistently adds stress. He's not worth the stress really. I just rise above and go about my day and life. For the most part I am calm, and feel good and peaceful. We all have bad days but it certainly doesn't define me. Perspective helps with that. And seeing how precious life is opens your eyes to what is truly worth being upset over. I march to the beat of my own drum. I am a goofball and that's fine. Life is too short to be anything other than you. I am not a fan of fake people.
May is a bit of a tough month. Mothers day reminds me of my mother. May 23rd is my mothers birthday. Time heals a bit and the blow isn't as severe but I always miss her. At her funeral I promised her that she would be a grandmother. That the children I had would know of her and my boys do. They know of "Grandma Cheryl" and I keep her memory alive with them. We do a lot of shout outs! A lot of "Hiii Grandma Cheryl!!! We love you!!!!" :)
Have a great day everyone!!
"For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness" - Ralph Waldo Emerson
xoxoxoxo
Tam
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