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Hello all. 

Feeling so sad and just don't understand the senseless violence in Boston yesterday. To think people can't even participate or attend something as innocent as a marathon. They didn't go there to talk about politics or religion. They went to run. People in peak physical condition wanting to do something amazing. But then I live close to Newtown, CT where another senseless and heart-breaking tragedy occurred in an elementary school. And I have friends in Colorado where attending a movie turned tragic. And of course I don't live far from NYC and saw the smoke billowing in lower Manhattan the day of September 11th. 

How do you wrap your head around this? I know countries across the world have been dealing with this kind of violence for a very long time and it's always saddened me. The frequency at which it's happening in this country is now alarming. Whether it's an act of terrorism or a very sick individual, how do you prepare yourself and your children for a world like this? I know the United States is a target. I come from a big military family which two grandfathers who were Lt. Colonel's in the Army so   I am patriotic and support our military but I just wish it didn't have to be this way. I know that's pretty naive and simple. But I do wish it. I wish I was raising my boys in a peaceful world but it's terrifying to think they will deal with far worse than I ever have in my life. But it's not like violence in the United States is new. Crime has always been around. And yet here we are wondering what the hell is going on. I guess there really are no words or explanations for such atrocious acts. 

So my heart and prayers are with the people of Boston today. It's one of my favorite cities as I am a history nerd. And one of my very good friends lives there. Love you guys! Stay strong!! 

My thoughts today are on giving each other and ourselves a damn break. There is so much ugliness and hatred in the world and here many of us are treating ourselves poorly. We are all so hard on ourselves to be perfect and look a certain way and feel inferior if we don't. That needs to stop. I know I am probably idealistic. Sue me! I just wish everyone could relax and not be so stressed out about everything and be more accepting of each other's differences. One thing I love about this country is the fact that everyone has different heritage and background. I am a complete mutt and I love that. I have ancestors from England, Scotland, Ireland, France and I think there are some that are Mediterranean. I also have Native American on both sides. My great aunt even found out I'm related to Pochahontas! Sweet!.... I think the mix has made me look more European and even in high school I had newcomers wonder if I a foreign exchange student. When I went to Italy they thought I was Italian or Greek. It's cool though. I love being a mutt! :) 

I have pale skin and some freckles, and darker eyes and hair. I have a scar on my forehead from tripping when I was a little girl and needing stitches. I have a c-section scar, and scars on my leg from riding my 10-speed bike and crashing it when I was a teenager and I have a burn on my arm in the wrist area from when I took culinary classes and was turning the big beef bone and the grease splattered me.  It is what it is. I've decided to accept what I am and just own it and make the best of it. I don't really have a desire to be super tan. I look weird when I am. I will try trends here and there but I don't consider myself trendy. I like vintage, I like classic but I do like some current things like the Chevron look. So pretty! And there are parts of my body I am less than ecstatic about. What are ya gonna do? I am a human being, not a robot. I think when we all just relax and accept ourselves life becomes easier. Not easy...easier. We aren't going to please everyone. Just focus on being yourself and being happy and healthy and the rest falls into place and those that are meant to be in your life will be there. Those that don't want to be there based on superficial things are not worthy and you won't miss them in the end. Plain and simple. 

I've had a few days off. Partly from being sick and also just my normal days off. I am feeling better! More myself. I have normal energy and have had some good workouts which always helps me feel more ME. I did color over the red part of my hair last night. No more ombre. It was fun and I may do it again but for now it's back to my dark brown. And I have plans tonight. ;) 

Have a great day everyone! My Boston friend posted this last night and it's a great message. Not the Coca Cola part. No SODA!! lol!! I'd like to buy the world some water and green tea! :) Gotta love the 70's! I'm pretty happy turtlenecks are not as in style as they used to be. They make me feel like I'm being strangled. Eeeeessh! ;) 

Have a blessed day!! xoxoxox
Tam